New Age

Hello in January!
Long time no see.

Sometimes there are time when you wanna laugh all the time, kidding around, catch eye-contacts and be the most positive person ever met! well.. not today and that's not me.
A lot of thinking. Again.
Was wondering about other kind of life. Right now my life consists of work, floorball, home and, in a best case, some creative drawing  or poetry after practice. That's almost all my day by day. I would love to change it. at least for a while until I started to miss it again! I wanna miss floorball! I wanna play it with my heart. Now I am playing it because I have to. And I will keep on doing it. I have responsibility's for my team. I just can't quit!!!  It's not working like that. Can say, I am in "relationship with floorball". I found no time for dating. I could find it.. but if I might found him.. do I will  found enough time for him?
Other kind of life. it might look like this. I came home after work and my boyfriend is already here. We made some dinner together. He probably go to his practice, I:

• take my violin and go to violin ensemble. 
• sing in a band
• go to art school/ my own studio by art or photography/ teach art lessons, violin lessons 
• go climbing
• go outside for run
• study
• do nothing.
• go out with my friends
• work in some other work
• coach young goalkeepers
• share " Free Hugs" almost every day 
• do charity work
• will become a writer

well.. pretty much something "other kind of life". Today I wanted something different. I really wanted to go to some wide, empty place with stage and spotlight on and play violin like Vanessa Mae do. I love her. I wish I could be as half as good as she is. Play as she do. Without fear. With tripping, fast, skillful fingers. And I know than I could. I believe than I could. But.. Under every success hides a hard, long and patient work. And it takes time. Precious Time.

This is the New Age. 

"Whatever it was, I’m over it now. 

With every day, it gets better.

And with every day, every day 

I try to move on. 

Whatever it was, 

Whatever it was, 

There’s nothing now. 

You changed.      

New Age."

Cherry Lauma