Spontaneous trip! I have booked boat for tomorrow to mainland. I haven't decided jet, but think I am going to Stockholm! my small vacation. for me- a small town girl who's not so excited about Big Cities! Well, here I come!
Quite crazy! I am changed. I am not scared anymore to make my own decisions. I am not afraid to fall and get hurt.. I have been done that before.. can it hurts much more than previous times? I will see. But as I said I am not scared anymore. Fear is always with me, but I am listening to my heart now! Mind is full of weaknesses and too much thinking is killing our true dreams! Too much thinking stops us from living!
I am not afraid to make my mistakes. I will learn from them! I will always be myself! I will always say what's on my mind if you ask and how I feel. You can shut me down, but I will talk anyway. I will keep silence but you will see my tears. I will be myself with my decisions. I will always be my with my past. I can't be like you. But I will always respect you by who you are. I will do things on my own way! You can join me or just keep looking!
I am not so good at writing blog, I think. Blog is your life's moments you share like almost every day.Well.. I share my thought when I have inspiration.
I wanna start to write a book, i think. You have no idea how many awesome thinking I have done.. too bad I haven't wrote it down. Really wish my mind could be able to connect to PC and it will write down every crazy, funny, intelligent thought which comes up in my mind. That might be more than awesome!
Well.. I haven't practice this week. I have been working way too many, I think. But feels good. Tired but good. Wanna get out from all orders what's behind us. I wanna see us succeed even more. I wanna see us as the Best!
Twin personality. I can't hide my emotions. I can't be happy when I feel like crying. And I think it's just wrong and fake. How can you be happy every day? How can you do your best in every practice? How you can enjoy something you have started to hate? (ok, hate is way too strong word) How can you love yourself when you are disappointed on yourself? How can I pretend than I am myself by doing these things?
Sometimes I get scared how easily I get close too people. How easy it feel for me to understand what they are " made of". and then they leave..
Cherry Me
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