The calmness before the storm?

I know, something is going to change. I have been in this position for a while and I don't like it anymore. I don't like it at all. I was tired of being in same routine day by day, I changed it, for a while I really liked it but now the new routine is chasing after me again. The change is coming. I can feel it with some undiscovered sense in my body. Maybe it's my intuition. And it feels not good at all. It feels.. scary and calm at the same way. I'll be ready.

I don't feel good inside.

I am reading Osho book of meditation and it says to do not fight against body needs like eating or drinking water. If you will start that, it gonna ends with your death. Take a fight with your mind memories and when you will win them, you are gonna be free and happy. Mind memories is a routine which captured all you and do not let you be free. It's memories I have to fight with. When you stop collect them, mind can't remind you how to act or what to do in coming situation, because it don't know how. But every time when there comes a similar situation, be spontaneous and creative. Don't do what you have done before if there is other option how to solve the problem. It's the way how to get out of routine. It's how to be happy.

Change is coming sooner or later.

xoxo,
Cherry Lauma