When Sun shines from Behind, I see my shadow walking in front of my steps.. and I am too scared to turn around and let the Sun light illuminate up my face.

Yesterday I woke up. It was warm and uncozy foggy Saturday. But some beauty this day was carrying on it's shoulders anyway.

As a girl, I always wanna look good, and when I like how I look I feel good. Yesterday I made up my hair like 7 times at least so I decided to drop myself in to Hairdresser. Luckily I step inside the very first Barber-shop and they took my wishes and made my hair shorter and somehow in a cute order. From now you will be aloud to see my natural- curly hair.
Thank you very much! Now I feel good again.

I don't like to don't get what I want. Who does!? But that's how it is in Life. it seems like it always have some meaning or it's just complicated. Right now I stand in a position where I understand than I don't need this, but I want it so bad. And I don't know anymore what's right and why it's wrong? Mixed emotions. I don't see the end.. but I like the process.

I am drinking my second coffee today. Have slept at least half of what I should slept.
Mother Nature, thank you!

It's floorball-day today. Will start with A-team playing 13 o'clock. My company is main sponsor today and will give a price to best players. I have them in my car. Cute, I am the choosen one who will give them to best players today.
Later it's one game between and than my team is gonna play. A bunch of new, little bit unsure but talantive girls. The goal this year is go up to first division. I will give all my best to get there.

New haircut, same old fake gaga-blue contact lenses in my eyes just to hide my soul from other eyes, sensetive feeling and heavy heart.
I think I should smile more. 

sincerely Your Cherry Lauma.