Dream Job.

I know what I wanna become when I grow up.
I want to be a goalkeeper coach!

And it includes all the goalie thinking, being different and trusting mostly only in your skills I will be leading to.

Once, one of my friend and coach said to me, as a goalkeeper you have to trust only yourself. It's your developed skills you have been working on and become who you are- the only person you can trust for 100%! There is none else who can bring you down, only you if you let it happened.

To be the best takes a lot of courage. To be the best means I have to be outstanding and special in my own way.  To be the best means to stand alone in times when my opinion and belief are not similar with other ones ( but for God sake, just don't fight for acceptableness in others eyes, they have their own truth too. Deal with it! ) To be the best takes all what I have inside of me! To be the best means to be strong, follow my heart and insane passion for what ever I do. I do what I like, like what I do. Work! Because nothing more will counts at the end of my life than my performance and fulfillment of my dreams. Remember that.
Do what you like, like what you do.

If I want to be normal and like everyone else, I just fallow the crowd and fit in society, fallow the stream, buy the clothes everyone wears, buy the top products to be accepted and because it's fashion now. If I want to be normal, I will be like the most of the people. Are we lucky? I hope and wish so! But I don't believe in it. We are not. We say we are and we are so scared to lose what we have- job we don't really enjoy, roof on top of the head, money in the account and some of the people have it worse we say. Well, that's true. But some of these people who have it worse are more happier with that what they don't have instead of us who have it, but they have this faith and dream in front of their eyes they are aiming at. And they are fearless to lose something what's actually they don't have and will never truly have.
Fearless is the courage. Courage to lose the comfort. To be happy is gonna suck out all of my courage and will take everything I have inside of me to reach my dream. And I will! Money is a materiel happiness to own the things, but it can't buy my inner peace and emotions.

I hope we are doing our dream work and not counting the days until vacation, because when we love what we do, we don't need the rest of it for 4 weeks and later complain than it's Monday again and ah, gash.. I hate Mondays. Think, there are millions of people out there doing job they hate. Why?

" A boat is safe in a harbor. But this is not the purpose of the boat." (Paulo Coelho)

None is asking for me to leave, quit or do something more. We are asked to do our job. We are asked to do it good with 100% return. (Same in team doing sports.) And why not? We get paid for it, but why it's always the money about? (I know why, but it's half-wrong in my opinion. Still we need money to survive in this World.)Why we don't do it just because we like it? Why we don't want to help our colleges to success? Aren't people meant to help each other? I think we do! And why not? If we say it's not ours company, it's my boss one is and we don't give a shit about it (talking in common), why are we still here and why don't we start our own company? Maybe we should.. and we will see how it works with our own eyes in our own company, where everything belongs to one, I will need a help to run it, but there will be us, people who don't care: Just pay me a salary, that's all, I will do what I can and what I think it's enough! (talking in common again)

I think we, human race, are talking too much and still we are missing a lot of communication what's the main reason for being misunderstood in our lives and parts of society. The "wrong" kind of communication.
Watch the movie with Eddie Murphy " A Thousand Words".

It's only we who can make the decision and change.
It's our Life. Live it good and give the best performance no matters what age we are.
At the end only our performance matters.

Reach for greatness in you, reach the person your 8 years old yourself might call a hero and be proud of. Do what ever makes you happy. Love. Smile. Help. Be strong. Patient. Accept. Love yourself and don't deny your dreams.

 Cherry Lauma 

Nothing.

Isn't it..
Was it..
What if...
But...
Ah, no. Never mind.
I just..
I just wanted to..


Nothing.

the moment of relief

I straightened the collar so wind stops to breath his cold breath on my neck.
It's evening and dark clouds had covered the horizon and sky's upon my head.
It's raining. I stretch my face against the sky's so high as I can.
A hundreds of rain drops fall on my uncovered skin and moves slowly their own way.
They slowly disappear on my face's angles or die on my warm lips or neck.
Sky is crying.
I breath the silence in. Have you ever tasted it?
It was long time ago I was alone with myself.
Like a shy child I try to feel my heart beets and listen to my inside feeling.
So quiet.
It was long time ago I was this quite.
Have I found that a long-time-awaited base inside and under myself?
Where did you took it so long!? I missed you so much!

Rain drops strongly hits my face. I breathe.
I feel the calmness of this moment.
I feel this relief.
Sky is crying.
Rain washes away the salt drops from my face.
So secretly I try to hide my tears even from myself
but at the end I feel them burning and itching my skin.
Breathe out.
Cry if you want to.
And may silence make you strong.

The moment of relief.

I care too much.

We live in the World where everyone is loyal and accept everyone by his way of looks, way he dress and the way he thinks. At least that's how I define how I see the Worlds and global community today.
Be yourself, that's what intelligent part of society says and you can read about it everywhere. Don't be fake, don't fallow the crowd only if you feel like you have to. Listen to yourself, listen to your heart but take your brain with you.
Life is throwing threw me it's lesson right now, where I can't stand with both feet safe on the ground. My World is shaken. I have lost my inside peace, I am fighting with my character and I have lost the belief in who I am. Deep inside I know than I know exactly who I am but every small detail is falling apart and I am trying to catch it, look at it closely, take the decision if it's mine or not. I am trying to feel myself. I am trying to not to give up.
I feel it. I feel than I am doing right thing. I care.
I care more than you can imagine. I care so much than it's hard to make others believe than impossible is possible. And it is. I care so much than I rather do it by myself than trying to involved some other against their will. I care about others so I rather don't make them to believe than impossible is possible, because they don't want that. Careless. That's good quality in person too. We like different. And non is stopping you to be one if you want to.
I am the one and only. I am the person with high responsible, loyalty, care and courage. I better stand alone and cry my heart out because it's so lonely and scary than fallow something usual that I don't want to.
"Break if you are broken down, but you may never bend."

That's funny how one of the Worlds greatest quality in person- the sense of care, might be taken so wrong.

CherryLauma

P.S. I Quit.