see what I saw

2011- December 31

time: 13- 16
place: Visby
_ Today I tried my New Camera! Check out how I saw the light from sky's shining on us!

Cherry

Time has come to change me. I feel like I do. Succes.

Everything seems easier and feels right when I understand what I really want. Everything happens as it have to be, i believe. And when it happens naturally I am not scared anymore. I just let it be as it have to be. I say what I feel. I act as I feel I am allowed. Time goes. I look back and understand how young, stupid and insure I have been. I destroyed Love by not letting myself in. I broke his heart. I never wanted to. But I did by being so cold.  But I was just blind.. But.. Everything is happening as it should be. And this have to be like it is (damn, it hurts saying these words). He have moved one. It was (is?) hard for me, but I am moving on too. Sometimes there is a person who just have to be in your heart but not in your life. It's him. All best for you!

I bought what my Heart was yelling for- a new photo camera. It's finally here! My wish to found a beautiful moments by finding a right light, figures finally is gonna come true! Yes! Happy girl.

One new thought born into my mind today- a Roudtrip from Visby or Sweden to Spain by car! :) Someone would like to join?

I remember myself a day I come to Sweden. Cute, very naive, scared, amenable, insecure. Deep inside I really wanted to change, just didn't know how and where to start. And Fear didn't let me. I am not scared anymore. These 3 and half years have changed me a lot by making me fight with myself and my body, making me to make mistakes and learn from them, made me to lose and understand how it feels when I can't fight against destiny and how to forgive and win back friendship.

 I feel good now. I have found myself.

Cherry Me

Christmas Eve

Sitting alone in my bed with computer in my lap. Watching TV, drinking " Julmust" , having my warm, cozy smock and warm, white socks on.  Cozy. Feels like ordinary Saturday's  evening. I have called my mom to England and my sisters to Latvia and wished them Merry Christmas. Too bad we are not all together, but we have a plan. Really awesome plan! Something around Easter's we are planing to take holidays and go to Greek or where ever it might take us! It's gonna be me, my mam and hers boyfriend, my twin sister, oldest sister and second oldest sister with hers family. Ohh, it's gonna be awesome!
I have nothing to complain, actually. As much as I wish we could be together, all six at same Christmas table from day and ever... it's just the way it is. but we all are alive. Isn't it most important? isn't it most important, Laumis?  Answer stucks somewhere into between the deepest corner of heart.

No snow? Santa. dear Santa Claus! I haven't jet asked something for myself for Christmas. But if you hear me, I know you do, give us a White Christmas and for myself I wish bigger junk in a front! Thanks, hoo- hoo! :)

I have been obsessed with one fancy! So today I ordered one just to make myself satisfied. A new photo  camera! Now I wondering to have a piano too!!! :o I think I have to chill my mind and go to sleep!

Christmas is a beautiful time. My cousin Andis went home for Christmas and made a perfect present for his parents. He came as a present. They didn't expect him to come because he said he have to work and he is not gonna be able to come home. And he did. Awesome, Andis!
Christmas is not about presents. But presents helps us to make understand and show others than we care about them, we love them and they mean a lot to us. We love to make people happy. Even a small present make us smile. We love to give things.
I am gonna be honest I haven't buy any present this year. And I haven't asked anyone anything. I just don't want to. Of course, it's  very nice to have a present under a tree (only Christmas decoration is a advent wreath on my door and a Christmas flower which I had from one Flower shop as a present)  but right now I really wish for something what could heal my soul. And material things can't do that.. I need a hug. A friend. A love.

But, howsoever, I wish you a very nice, perfect and cozy Christmas, my reader. Hope you get from Santa what you wished for and have been eating so much food than you might not be eating anything tomorrow!

bye for tonight!
Your Cherry Lauma

who am I

Hello.
My name is Lauma. 22 years old. Short, dark brown hair, gray- green eyes, 1.76 cm tall, weight around 75kg. I came from small town in Latvia calls Ligatne. Was born in June 3, 1989 in Valmiera. Youngest of 4 daughters. Have twinsister. Graduate Ligatne Elementary school and Music School (2005) and Ligatne Secondary School and Art School (2008). 4th grade I started to play floorball and I am still doing it. Sixth grade I wanted to quit and start to play basketball in Riga. But I didn't. Who knows where I might be standing right now if I would choose to left my family, my friends and become a basketball player. Now I have landed here on Gotland 3 and a half years ago.  Started to play floorball in Swedish team (Endre IF) in Visby. They helped me with accommodation and work. I am goalkeeper. I am a dreamer, fighter and deep thinking person. Honest, little naive, kind, sensitive, creative and free. That's me, Cherry Lauma.

legendary!

Today wasn't My Day as I wished yesterday.  We lost with 5-8 against Dalen IBK. Tough is the word. I felt good. Not extremely awesome, but good. I was ready to do my best. But things happened as they was meant to happened. I went out from goal after few minutes in 2nd period. Something I really miss is the Trust. And I miss it a lot.
After game I jump into my car, drove home, took a shower, ate, jumped in Valdis car and we drove to Visby IBK game. Too bad if you wasn't there! they won in sd with 10-9! but only less then 5 minutes left in 3rd period the result was 4-8. take a look!

awesome game, guys! One of the best game I had ever seen! Congratulations and thank you all for this crazy emotions! :) 

Too much thinking lately. Too much confusion around and inside me. Wish I could just stop for the minute..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cqDD83Nz2bU&feature=related
 

Winner stands alone

Saturday and a game day. We won against elites one of the favo-team Iksu in sd with 7-6 here in Visby front of 463 viewers!Thank's a lot the awesomeness public ever!   I was sitting on bench and wrote statistics. What a fight! after 3rd period it said 6-6. Than sudden of death (sd) started and it felt like a war on field.  " If we can't win this game, no one can. not even Iksu team." The winner stands alone. And we won. and here are we standing alone as a team. Spirit of Team.
Tomorrow a new game. My day. Liisa (Kokkonen) was goaltending today. Awesome was the word. As she said, she is back, finally!  it's about a time! :) Hope I will show some magic saves tomorrow too. Tomorrow is my Day!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0_1IMZmJe-U